this week was just boring i guess. school and everything. today i got to sleep in a bit and just had to go to third period with amber. then left. then we went to pick up moo and ed cause the tires in the avalon were about to blow out! then the four of us went to mcalisters. amber and i then proceeded to her house. then we went shopping. i only have about 5 people left on my christmas list to shop for. so thats good and im happy. i really need to learn about money and how to budget it! idk HOW ON EARTH im gonna survive in the real world when im out on my own. i seriously need to get a job this summer and next year. i might try to work at the hospital. i guess id see daddy a lot. last night when me ed and jean got home from clinton i saw this show, "the boy whose skin fell off" it was about this man who had a skin disease that literally made it fall off. he looked....horrible. it was soooo sad. he died at thirty-six after a lifetime of agony. then i saw this two-headed baby. but i never saw the end. the boy whose skin fell off was named jonny kennedy. that story made me ask God....why do you let such horrible painful agonizing things happen to people? well ive no idea...but i think part of it is so others will see them and realize how blessed they are. and i think another part is cause...those people...jonny kennedy, he was like one of the most positive optimistic people ever. someone is excruciating pain...constantly...all their life..can be so positive and happy and all...and then us, people like me that are so blessed, we complain over the simplest things. i know people like that must have a great reward in heaven. God must hold them tighter than he holds anyone when they get there.

ok, with that last entry idk why it has that link thing on "a new song"...i didnt put that there...kinda weird...

anyway, its been a long time since i've written anything. not much has been going on. just school and what not. ive gotten to see austen a lot this week so thats great. i think me and amber are going to clinton tomorrow to see yours mine and ours i cant wait cause we never hang out that much anymore and i miss her...

old sunkist isnt very good...

im really stressed out and its my own fault...i havent practiced clarinet or studied for the ACT at all. i keep saying im going to study today but i havent....ive actually been praying that God will give me the self-control and will power to study lol...i think thats the kind of prayer that its like you have to help yourself for him to help u, u know what i mean? ive never understood those kind of prayers....cause then its like, if u have to help yourself, does it really matter if u pray? isnt that kind of pointless? if anybody has an answer to that, please tell me.

matthew told me today that we wont find out about the musical until NEXT FRIDAY! isnt that ridiculous??? watch em put it off even longer.

mary alyce trips me OUT! "i think its more of an egg plant" "would anyone like some cuticle cream? its from burts bees" LOL!

heres a new song

i'm at home, but i feel so homesick.

where you roam, please, let me be.

i guess there's no definition to your love,

cause when you're here, no words come to me.

i'm at home, but i'm not, and i want to leave.

where you are is where i want to be.

with your precious arms around my sinful flesh

all the time.

your very steps on the shore beside mine.

what love is this that never leaves me

from the highest of heights to the

deepest of seas?

your precious arms surround me all the time.

your very steps walk the shore...

what love is this that never leaves me

from the highest of heights to the

deepest of seas!

your precious arms surround me

all the time

your very steps

walk the shore....

beside mine.

its been a really good weekend. friday was terrible, but it got better. that night pa grape moo evana brandi and i went to MC to the festival of lights. we went to margaritas first. i didnt like that place that much. the festival of lights was AWESOME like always. they did some new african song which was amazing. then brandi spent the night and we got up at like 11 and tried to finish watching the hot chick but then the power went out before we could finish it!!! then amber came over and all of us went to el ranchero. and guess who came and surprised me....austen! aw i was so happy and surprised. i hadnt seen him in a long time. then me evana and amber went to ambers to get ready for the parade then walmart and i got clothes for the madrigal feast. then we went to the parade and that wasnt fun AT ALL. it was soooo hot and just not fun. then we went to the madrigal feast. gosh, i was awesome. austen did great and everybody else did too. and the food was good. so then we went to adams for a while and there were a ton of people there then austen and i just came home and didnt stay too long then he spent the night now we're bout to go to church then to clinton to eat with him fam. then we're going BACK to church to see evana be the big angel in the christmas pageant. aw i cant wait till next year i hope im mary. then im going with amber to hayleys church to see her be dorothy in a play and sing somewhere over the rainbow.

love,

eleana